January 1st, 2005
|11:54 pm - Happy New Year|
Hey everyone I hope that you all had a fun new year's eve and hopefully have a great 2005. Besides being told that I need to get laid at the party I attended last night my new year's was fun. My mom got a new car (random) on the 31st and all of my friends and I were separated from each other. Today for some reason was awesome and one of my most favorite days that I've speant with Ryan and we really didn't do much. We shopped for jeans and then went to his house and hung out by playing cards and having a good time. He's so great. And tomorrow we're goingo to go to a wedding for his ex-girlfriend. wierd but I'm glad that I can go with him. I'm so stoked on him! We've been together for 9 months now and I actually had someone to kiss when the new year came in. (It was a first for me.)
Current Mood: grateful
December 15th, 2004
|01:32 am - Finally!|
Well I finally got a picture of myself up here in livejournal land. I think Lee took this one the last time he was up here playing.
Christmas is coming so fast. I think that December is one of the fastest months that fly by the calendar. I can't believe that it's my mom's birthday tomorrow. I don't quite have all my shopping done which stresses me out but hopefully that won't last long.
The christmas pageant is going awesome. If any of you want to see an AWESOME show on Christmas eve, EVE (23rd) come to St. Lukes @ 6 it will be awesome! (if all goes well) I've been working on it since August. I wrote it, directed it and am producing it I guess. Anyways, I should sleep. It's my first real day of sleeping in since finals ended on Thurs. So good night all of you and I'll hopefully see you on the 23rd.
Current Mood: stressed
November 5th, 2004
|02:33 pm - I'm a tappy Tapper!|
I have just recently started tap dancing again and it is so humbling! I haven't done it in over 10 years and I am in a class with jr. highers (who are all very nice) and even though I'm frustrated at myself for not knowing how to tap as well as I used to I'm finding as I drive my family crazy with my practicing that I love it. I hope that I can find a class that fits my schedule and that is small enough that I don't get lost in it. Anyways oh livejournal land life is good and I'm very humbled. It's always nice to get a good kick in the pants by humility.
Current Mood: relaxed
November 3rd, 2004
|09:06 pm - Life is awesome|
I just wanted to say how GREAT of a gift that life truly is. Even when it sucks we can still find the joy that comes with the fresh start that everyday brings and the new adventures that occurs. That's all I really have to say!
Current Mood: optimistic
October 12th, 2004
|10:09 pm - Love is FUN!!!|
I just wanted to share what creative things that Ryan and I have decided to do this week. Just like every other couple we struggle with being and staying physically pure so it was Ryan's idea that this week we would express our love for each other in anyway that we could think of other than physically. Already I have decorated his truck with little notes, surprised him with a surprise visit for only a short while, sent him an e-card, and wrote him a letter. Later in the week I'll be making him a home cooked meal and doing other things that I have yet to reveal because it's a surprise. Overall it has been a challenge to think of new and different ways to say the simple "I love you". I encourage all of you who are in a relationship to give it a try. It is both fun and challenging but it's cool seeing what the other person comes up with and it's usually 10 times better than a kiss.
I love you all,
Current Mood: creative
October 5th, 2004
|10:20 pm - Life...|
Life these past weeks have been crazy. All of a sudden plans for college have changed and I'm still trying to catch up. Life is hard and patience is even harder. It's hard loving someone so much and having to wait until that time where we can be together all the time instead of driving around and scheduling your life around crazy schedules just to see them for a few minutes (which by the way is totally worth the drive but it would be nice if he was always there) . I would be surprised if Ryan wasn't the one for me. I've never cared for someone as much as I care for him. He brings out the best in me like no one ever has and I love every single solitary moment together. (good bad and ugly). He makes me want to be a better person and I just can't express with words what he means to me. I hope you know how I feel about you Manly man! (wink wink)
Homecoming for CV is coming up fast and my sister is going to be the belle of the ball. She is so amazing I wish she knew how much I love and adore her. I know that I won't live at home much longer but I hope we always have the good times like our shopping adventures that we have together. And even though I'm not the cool older sister that I wish I was I know she thankful for me. My brother is seriously my rock and my protector. I love our bonding time watching the family guy late and night and laughing at nerds and loving life and just flat out being silly. And my mom, although sometimes I hate living under her roof I really love her. She's the strongest person I've ever known and i hope that she finds someone great for her soon so that she won't be so lonely. I hope that I can be half the person that she is. She is AMAZING!
The only other thing that is so important to me besides my family and ryan is my Bible study and the WONDERFUL girls that God has blessed me with in the group. I love and look forward to Mondays and I just hope that all of the girls know how much they mean to me and stoke me out! I love you girls and I hope you all know that my phone is always on and you can call me at 3 in the morning if you have to. I can't wait to see how you all turn out because I know it will be GREAT! I'm always here for you and I hope that you all know that!
You have truely blessed me and I have felt your love so strongly. Thank you for that love that never fails and always keeps me safe, that continues to pour out blessings everyday.
Current Mood: loved
September 24th, 2004
I just wanted to update everyone....These past few days have been stressful for those who have known. I was tested for cancer and the doctor called me today and I don't have any at all. Everything tested fine. I need some more iron in my diet but besides that I'm very very healthy and I should be around for many more years to come. I guess I will be able to see Ryan's green hair after all! I love you babe!
Thank you for all of those who prayed for me and was there for me when I needed someone to talk to or just be a friend. Life is good. I learned to really enjoy the little things these past few days because I know that they won't always be around like stroking Ryan's hair and feeling how soft his lips are and also just being grateful for another day of life. I enjoy smiles so much more I think. Hopefully this won't just be a phase and that I will always remember this time and really appreciate what I have and the gift that is life.
I also realized that I don't want to be with anyone but Ryan for the rest of my life. There aren't any doubts in my mind. He was so faithful to come and see me everyday and do the sucky drive from apu sometimes twice a day. I love you so much. I would be so lucky to end up with him and grow with him for the rest of the time I am on earth. I love the person he is and I can't wait to see the person he'll become. I love everything about him and it's an incredible feeling when you know that someone loves you so dearly that they would do anything at all for you. He's the best!
Well I better go before I completely lose it (oh well too late for that)
Much love all!
Current Mood: grateful
September 21st, 2004
|12:17 pm - Please Pray For Me!|
Today I woke up and I felt a lump under my chin and it's very tender so I ditched school to go to the doctor's.
When I got there the doctor was very funny and just an all around cool guy but he looked at my neck and he wanted to do some tests.
Right now I"m very scared. He's testing for cancer. I probably don't have it and the lump is just a wierd infection but I don't know. Please keep me in your prayers because cancer is a very scarry word, especially since my Grandad just died from it.
I love you all!
September 9th, 2004
|12:12 pm - It's Been Some Time|
I haven't updated in a few weeks so I thought that I should. I'm currently in school and I hate it. I would much rather go back to summer and not worry about school work or the stress that comes with it. Ryan and I have almost been together for 6 months now and tomorrow it will have been 6 months since the youth rally. I've never hit the 6 month point with any guy and it's very exciting especially since I care for him so much. I'm not sure what we'll actually do on the day since I don't have class but he does. We might just chill or use our Disneyland passes. Either way all I want to do is to spend some good quality time with my guy!
My Bible study with the High School and Jr. Higher girls has been great. God is not only blessing them but me as well. Monday is now my most favorite day of the week. They are all very awesome girls! Work has been crazy, I have the kids group starting up and the Christmas play needs to be done ASAP! And then I have to arrange meetings through out my schedule. It's crazy but I love my job.
I guess the only other thing is that I'll be at Seaside on Sunday and I can't wait! I miss my home church and I can't wait to see everyone for a great Seaside Sunday morning!
I have to go study but you all better keep it real and trust in God!
August 22nd, 2004
|09:18 am - Yowza!|
Wow, I have a live journal. This is kind of weird but cool as well. I guess it will give everyone a chance to get to know me a little better.
I guess for my first entry I'll just make some shout outs.
Hey all of my jr. highers who I haven't seen in a while. Call me and we'll hook up.
My next shout out goes to those CRAZY CANUCKS! I miss you guys and you all need to come and visit really soon (especially Chelsea)
Hey Simon Squirrles I miss you guys and I went to visit you but you were at camp. I guess that's what I get for trying to surprise you all.
I guess that's enough for now.
I'll chat with y'all lates!